I want a life coach. I said this to Bu and he said we already know what to do but are resisting the doing of it. But I don't. I have the lists and the notes and the sketches and the Big Creative Breakthroughs. But I can't do them all. I can't find a heirarchy. There is only:
2. The chaotic, clashing, various Everything Else.
How do I edit this passionate river of creative urge pushing at me with a hundred different currents? How do I find a direction in a million beautiful paths before me, when all I can feel for certain is the being I'm carrying- something (small someone) heavy and important and verdant and living and growing and voracious and demanding and constant?
I'm in circles.
It's not parenting that presses and worries, it's trying to do anything else simultaneously.