The project:
Here’s how it’s going to work:
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Five Mom Things:
love #1 The physicality of it- the snuggly intensity of connection that is still a pretty big deal for my clingy girl. I loved nursing, I love cosleeping, and I love the way she'll hold my face in two sturdy if impossibly tiny hands and kiss me. I'm a touchy person and the hold-me-every-minute thing is usually cool with me.
love #2 The primal, human normalcy of motherhood- as if I belong to a vast club that I never (for whatever reason) thought I'd join. I love how, simultaneous, my child is a precious singularity and is most rare and amazing.
love #3 The strength I've dug up from deeper-than-myself. Mothering without my own mama, birthing hard from a zarked-up, scarred body with minimal drugs, powering through nursing challenges- all these have reminded me of my power.

love #4 Watching Molly's creativity unfold like some tricky origami that's impossible complex and continually opening.
not-so-much-love #5 Alone time must be scheduled, arranged, purposeful, planned. I have to fight for every quiet moment. I didn't realize until a couple of years into marriage and toddlerhood that I turn into a strung-out zombie of aa person if I don't feed my b uzzy, hyper brain with quiet reflection.
Tags: Brooke of Urban Earth Mama, Thordora of Spin Me I Pulsate, Alexis of This Wabi Sabi Life, Sarah of "And the Goon Squad" fame, Leanne The Clever Mom.
hehe, I knew you would tag me when I saw her tag you :D
ReplyDeletehmmmm... right after lunch!
As soon as I get caught up I am all over this.
ReplyDeleteI love that - yours is so much happier than mine!
ReplyDeleteSomeday I'll be a happy-mama...I just wish that day were here already, because I've got a great kid and he seriously deserves better.
GardenHeidi! (That name made me smile so big!)
ReplyDeleteYeah... if I'd just now posted this it would have been peppered with horrific anxiety and frustration and the bullet-in-brain gestures I've been miming to Shane all night long. Bedtime is a new deep hell. Tantrums make me want to laugh and cry at the same time and upgrade my Celexa to Thorazine. F U C K.