Monday, January 3, 2011

Alienation & The Continuing Adventures of Elephant Girl

I saw my new chiropractor, and am extremely impressed. He is the second one I've seen, and there are multiple ways that he shines as a professional and thorough doctor- I'll probably gush more later.

Gushing aside, I learned that I have yet another birth defect. (And wow- this was not caught by previous chiropractor.) I have an extra thoracic vertebra* and my tailbone is not fused right to my lumbar something or other and I was amused at Dr. H's remark that I am really cool anatomically. I totally agreed, then underwent the bliss that is traction and then the scary cracks that are adjustment.

After I drove away, though, all my outsider perception stuff flooded out and I'm really fucking bummed out now. I had just this week sent out some emails to teratology organizations to ask where to start researching and they all had no help at all other than genetic counseling-and I'm assuming insurance doesn't indulge either curiosity or the growing conviction that one was perhaps altered by alien technology as a fetus.

Dr. H mentioned the "way the Good Lord made ya..." which was sweet but added to the frustration of wanting to know WHY. Then, in the teary aftermath, I surrendered a little and decided that The Good Lord Who Made Me was Ganesha. Shane helped me pollyanna-fy, too. Looking at those x-rays made me glad I can walk 98% of the time. I have some bone degeneration and also a leg shorter than the other and my crazy monkey toes need to be addressed when the foot scanner's not b0rked.

*So. Thirteen** lumbar vertebrae. That would have REALLY tickled the medieval Witch Hunters, had they not been ignorant, misogynist fuckwits. (As an occulty type with a bunch of "devil's marks" I love the extra witchiness of my oddities. They'd have burned me for sure.)

**You know, 'cause witches have 13*** sabbats? Full moons per year...

***Feel free, anyone, to nickname me Thirteen, by the way. OK. Have blogged myself into cheer.


{Note: This post was written before my diagnosis of phocomelia. Read about the shockingly wonderful moment when I was accidentally diagnosed, or read all my posts about my strange body.} 

3 comments:

  1. God love your heart, Heidi! And those vertebrae, too. You can write like nobody else and I love reading your blogs. Love Ganesha too and so did your mom. Wonder if he always had a plan for you, and the physical problems led you to possess the magnificent mind you have today. I greatly encourage you to get published, girl. You truly have tremendous talent!!

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  2. Aunt Brookie, you are the best<3

    I've decided that 13 really rocks, and am ALREADY planning a new tattoo:D

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  3. 13 is the bestest number, my mama was born on the 13th and it adds up to 4 which is MY number, so it is extra awesomesauce special good :D

    <3

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