Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Dreams & Demons

I have a serious new fictional crush: Azhrarn the Demon Prince of Tanith Lee's Night's Master has stolen my heart. He is deliciously evil and swoonworthy. And I'm taken with Ms. Lee has as well- her writing style is absolute perfection. It's effortlessly elegant and storyteller-ish. I have no better word than that, but it's very like listening to an oral story. There's a vibe that's not unlike Neil Gaiman, that sparks a feeling that she's telling the story aloud to an intimate audience. And like my ever-beloved Mr. Gaiman, she makes me want to write fiction.

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I'm going to spend some time on my story today, after relating my dream here and probably while taking breaks from illustrating. I have won permission for an orgy and some dirty satyr sex and I am as pleased as you'd imagine by this.

So I woke this morning from a dream of my mom, and Drew Barrymore, and the collapse of the United States. Only the country was actually my high school. My recurring anxiety element of a malfunctioning telephone appeared- I was trying to reach my mom to pick me up from school, but I couldn't reach her. I have that dream often, either failing to reach Mom or Shane usually. Eventually I made it out of the suddenly civil-warring country/school and then home to the apartment I shared with mom and my brother, above where he and my aunt still live- and mom was very blasé, though I was hysterical with relief to finally see her. She'd been missing for months in the dream. (Admittedly that's much preferable to her being dead for more than a decade, and also to the zombie undead mom nightmares I used to have.) We ate delicious beans and rice that my brother had made and Jessica Simpson lived with us, inexplicably.

Simultaneously it seemed, in a parallel time stream, I had escaped instead to some posh apartment where Drew Barrymore (a crush who is a far more logical and welcome dream star than Jessica) and there was going to be some hot Drew sex but I had just learned I was HIV+ and didn't wish to be unsafe. It just popped into my head at the last minute. A terrible pity to be so close to a sex dream and miss the mark, but at least my dreamself is a responsible partner.

And then I awoke and watched The Pirate Fairy with the little one while I had my coffee. We planned some crafty activities but she was invited to the neighbors' and I have a quiet afternoon to write and draw. She wants to make a book with a hidden hollow piece, which sounds delightful to me, so tomorrow we'll make that. 

Off with me now. I have a date with a demon or two, some horny satyrs, and many evil trees.